Hey, hi, hello would be my usual greeting to you dear reader, but in highlight of the holy month, Ramadan Kareem would be more adequate! Yes, it’s quite alarming how we’ve crossed the first week of the holy month, and we all know the direction, and what follows after the next 15 coming days.
Picking up on that, it’s funny how we always seem to know of our next step, next position, destination, and direction, and god forbid that we’re ever in a position, destination, and direction where we don’t. Unfortunately, I seem to be in such a predicament where I don’t. It’s not a mid life crisis as I’m not in a “mid life” position, but it sure has a lot to do with where I want to be, who I want to be with, and what I want my environment to be like in the future. My stress and anxiety were heightened by the increasing uncertainty of my major at uni, the unpredictability of events, and the complicated, fast nature of life, especially over the last few months.
Now, I don’t deny that the future looks pretty promising at this point in my life, but the clenching fist of uncertainty, and anxiety clearly has a firm grip on me. Despite that, I’ve acknowledged the type of future I’d like to have, and I’m keen on working hard towards it. Nothing’s guaranteed, things are bound to go off track, and obstacles are inevitable; obstacles, no matter how hard they may be, do we create them? Do they just spring along? Or are we them?
I mean, have you ever thought about it? These obstacles that change our direction in life. Is it that I should’ve taken a left, when I took a right? I don’t claim that I’m going anywhere, or reaching to a certain point with this post, for it would defy its title.
A friend once told me “You often stand in the way of things. You’ve let your past hinder your present, and you’re only hurting yourself”. To that, I’m guilty & I don’t deny it. Following up on that, that particular friend also said “Life’s short, and nothing’s certain. Enjoy the moment, and give it your all – You have people that love you, and will walk with you through the pathway of life. You’re not blind, and you can see it. Just hold on tight, and pave your own way. Walk in the direction of the now, and do the most by yourself, for yourself.”